"Did you remember to bring your naloxone kit?"
I had a dream last night that I was doing blow off the back of a toilet seat and I looked down
between my legs into the bowl and saw a face.
And it was my mother but she had my father's eyes or the eyes of the drunk on our corner who
sleeps outside the church and sometimes throws garbage at me, and really they weren’t eyes at
all just empty swimming pools, sad and titanic.
And I tried to flush because I didn’t want her to see me doing this but she just got closer and I
moved back, and she burst through the toilet like a fucked up mermaid or the Madonna and she
gasped then so I knew she was human.
And I cried for forgiveness and I asked if she was going to kill me or just kick me out of the
house and she just shushed me the way that moms do and I saw through her glasses that she had
her own eyes back and then brought me to her and she was dry as a bone and warm like amber
and she said-
you know what she said.